In years past, God, I would thank you for your blessings.
Your faithfulness. Your mercy. Your grace. Then my daughter, my Katie, was struck with cancer. And I walked every step with her. The diagnosis. The hospitalizations. The chemo. The hair loss. The sticks and pokes. The days out of school. The excitement of returning. The zofran and EMLA always in my purse. The scans. The relapse. The weeks of being stuck in one room. The surgeries. The months away from home. The games and celebrations we watched from afar. The friends she missed. The homebound work. The favorite nurses. The awkward visitors. The dog. The residents who invaded our mornings. The beloved doctors who sat with us. The ambulance rides. The ICU. The weakness. The dragging IV pole. The bedside commode. The medications. The shower where we both got soaked as I shaved her legs. The hospital food. The snack machines. The wheelchair. The trips downstairs to the patio. The thrill of a day pass. The exuberance of discharge. The night my family slept under one roof again. The long day trips. The radiation. The infusions. The pain. The difficulty breathing. The suite life. The laughter. The Cone. The consultations. The questions. The answers that didn’t exist. The anticipation of a wish. The toes in the sand. The joy. The disappointment. The frustration. The fear. The fear. The fear. The strength. The hardest words ever. The last breath. I was there, God, but where were you? Where were you? You seemed absent. No guiding light. No angels. No healing. No miracles. Just darkness. Quiet darkness. Yet you were there. In the darkness. Quiet grace. Quiet mercy. Quiet faithfulness. And the blessings were so very, very quiet. Only I could see. Only I could hear. And only if I listened so carefully. And was quiet. Like you. Be still, my soul, and know. You are God.
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John
3/10/2018 09:46:34 pm
This is so powerful. Love you all.
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Diane Lett
3/10/2018 10:12:44 pm
Sarah,
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Lexi
3/10/2018 10:28:59 pm
I was just thinking about you all today!
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Whitney Cox
3/10/2018 10:29:37 pm
💜
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Jennifer Huffman
3/10/2018 10:39:19 pm
💜 thank you for sharing and opening your heart to us.
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Kelli Marshall
3/10/2018 10:43:10 pm
So beautifully said, Sarah 💜
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Rob Russo
3/11/2018 10:10:29 am
💜
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Diana
3/11/2018 10:13:36 am
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Meg
3/11/2018 10:20:40 am
My granddaughter at age 8 said that when someone dies that their heart breaks into pieces and enters the heart of everyone they love. I believe that to be so.
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Patty Tabor
3/11/2018 10:57:56 am
Sometimes the "whispers" from God are the most profound. Thank you for sharing your heart so beautifully. I think of your family often & pray for His peace and comfort for your family.
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Amy
3/11/2018 11:17:21 am
💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
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Tim n Bev
3/11/2018 12:55:59 pm
Powerful insight. Continuing prayers for you and the entire Cobb clan. 🙏🙏🙏
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Stacey
3/11/2018 12:56:56 pm
Beautiful words...thank you for YOUR blessings to us! 💜
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Donetta
3/11/2018 01:57:14 pm
Love you all. Thanks for sharing-always
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Peggy
3/11/2018 09:39:53 pm
My heart is with you. I know you don’t know me but know that you are in my prayers! God bless you and your family always.
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Shelley AndPatrick Coleman
3/11/2018 11:47:34 pm
Thank you for sharing. <3
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Julie
3/12/2018 04:42:06 am
💜
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Sharon
3/12/2018 08:28:08 am
🙏💜🙏💜
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Kim and David Maxson
3/12/2018 12:36:39 pm
God bless you Sarah and Chad, and the entire family. You continue to inspire us.
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John Anderson
3/12/2018 09:58:36 pm
I pray for you frequently, esp. when I get into the driver's seat of the 2002 Chevy Venture van. I haven't often known what to pray and I wrestle with the "why?" questions. Right now, I feel that I should be encouraging you, but you are the one encouraging me. Thank you.
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Missy Smith
3/13/2018 12:50:04 pm
So beautiful! Praying for all of you still!
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